In all the years that I have been working on this passion of mine, I’d always dreamed. I dreamed of traditional publishing, movie deals, and the world opening their eyes to new ideas, new minds. No more remakes, no more new stories centering on old ones.
It was time for a change. And why couldn’t I be the change? Stubbornly, I set forth on a path. One I couldn’t see the end to, but knew was there. I learned, I created, and I kept at it. I dreamt of whole towns, eccentric characters, storylines featuring mischief abound, and ultimately three Gems to round it all out. I enjoyed every minute of the brainstorming, story creation, character realizations, and realistic dialogue. And I finally succeeded.
I hit my first milestone on the path--that elusive Traditional Publishing Contract. But that wasn’t where my dreams or path ended. So I took the next leap, a big one. One that would bring me closer to my ultimate goal, opening minds to new stories. And for that to happen meant I would need to push past fear, anxiety, doubt and insecurity.
Why couldn’t I take that huge leap and put myself out there, put my story out there? After all, I’d been on this path for some time now. I knew the dips, the bumps, the forks along the way. But I also knew the satisfaction behind making it to the end.
So, with head held high, my path still set before me, I searched out movie producers, coming up empty handed with several online searches. But thanks a good friend and old NuComm-ite after months of trying, I had a name in the palm of my hand, an address, and a signed book, wrapped and ready.
Of course, this would be a big leap. But why not make any jump a big one? ‘Why go half-ass?’, as Randi Ronin in McBride’s Gem would say.
With Randi Roin’s determination to see the first installment in this series, her story out in the world, I walked through the front doors of a production office today and handed McBride’s Gem over to a producer from Gear Shift Films. I nervously plugged my novel, unprepared as I expected to leave the book with an assistant, not to meet up with two producers. But I stood tall, took a deep breath, and believed in myself and my work. I talked book biz with the tippy top of the industry and tried not to beam too much when one producer stated ‘That is Gold stuff right there’, upon hearing I was a traditionally published Northern Canadian author.
I left that office with tears in my eyes. Not because I left with a deal, or even expect to hear back. But because I put myself, my hard work, and my passion out there. I pulled away from the road, with a smile on my face and pride in my heart. Because whether or not this jump I took on my path leads to anything right now, I know I am on this path for life. It is what I know, it is what breathes from my soul and makes me smile the biggest damn smile I have.
I have come far on this path, I’ve tripped, fallen. But I always got back up, brushed off my knees and stepped forward. Because without this path, I would not be Roxanne Sackville, aka Roxy Matthews.
Never give up on yourself.